I think I am delusional about my life.

Do you ever feel that way? Like you think you know the person you were, well at least who THOUGHT you were. Maybe it is just a dream of some better person you wished you had been? Maybe I'm still the person I don't want to be. I don't know. I hope I'm at least trying to be better. I think that maybe growing up I was the kind of person that I now try SO had to help others not feel stung by. I guess that growing up and moving out and moving on makes you realize that the world is a WHOLE lot bigger than you and your little problems. I guess this is my "please forgive" me blog. I am sorry if I in some way was ever not nice or if I seemed judgemental to you. Maybe I'm just pregnant and hormonal. But thinking about growing up in a group of great people who I didn't appreciate. The girl I was closest to then I haven't talked to or seen in years, well besides facebook. I hope that in my adult life I can see the people who really love me and who really matter and make sure those are the ones I appreciate and spend time with. What is all boils down to is being comfortable with who you are and with who others are around you. I have really only known two maybe four people (I'd name them, but only one reads this blog... :) I think you know who you are) who are truely comfortable with themselves and seem to genuinely love people for who they are. I hope someday I can be like them! And it's not to say these people are perfect, but I know they don't EVER make people feel bad about themselves.... Sorry about this random blog. I'm just feeling crazy today. I've been sick all week and then woke up with a massive cold sore that is taking over my face.... :) So Here's to trying to get over myself and over my insecurities so that I can be a better person.