I do. A lot lately. Not to say I'm not happy, I just feel like things will never change. I want so much more out of life. I know I need to go back to school to be able to obtain the kind of life where I can actually do things and not worry about hearing "how much did that cost?" But, this is where the drowning comes in, I have a full time job and two kids and can't afford day care. if I go back to school, I'd have to take day classes and sacrifice the only time I have with them, not to mention the day care that we can't afford.... see where I'm going? I really wish I had family close by, some one I could trust and count on to help with the kids, that I didn't feel like I HAD to pay. I FEEL SO STUCK. like the only option is to work to continue to be broke. UUGGHH. Whatever.
on Hppier note.....Have you seen my cute baby lately?
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I'm sorry it's so difficult right now. I know how it feels to be far from family, none of the "built-in" help. And I wish I could offer to watch them for free, because I really would if I didn't have to run Bekah to and from school in the mornings. And I wish I had some solution for you, or something comforting to say! I guess there's a time & a season for everything and this is just the crappy part right now. :/ I'm always here if you need to talk.
:( Very cute picture of you cute baby but I must add she has a VERY cute mom! I am so sorry that you feel this way. Just know that you are not the only one with these feelings. Someone will throw a life saver out to you...meaning something good will come along. Love you!
I totally understand. I'm sorry you are feeling hopeless, but things will pick up and be better. The sad part is that I do have family close by but they aren't willing to help, so we are stuck in the same situation. Have you thought about online classes? I know it still takes time but it might be more doable than driving to school and going to classes. I thought about that for a while. Seemed a little more manageable than going to classes.
It's all lame I say and you go ahead and say so girl! Then kiss those kids of yours and remember you are loved by like a million people! And I am one of them!!! Wish I could watch the kiddos for you! You are beautiful and I love ya! (PS now for the advice part: read at your own risk...ha ha My favorite quote right now "I can do hard things." We all can. And I believe that! I miss you old friend!
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